Resolutions For 2010...

Okay, It's the final few days of 2009. So i guess Resolutions time since Erica has done it already. LOL

Let's see. i know i made a couple of new year resolutions last year, but i kinda forgot half the list a month later. tho i still remembered that i wanted to create an art piece i could be proud of. LoL... Well... So after Searching my history of blogging, HAhaha, I found that i had made 10 resolutions... Which i did achieve some and failed miserably in some others... =/ Here goes nothing?

1) Make This 2009 Be An EVEN MORE EVENTFUL YEAR~
Verdict? Hmmm.... according to my photo album, i actually had more outings and fun events in 2008 than this year. i became a bit more anti social this year sadly. =X But this doesn't mean that i didn't have any fun times. Overall, hmmm.... didn't pass this, but not entire failure... i had some really memorable events =)


2) Build Up Even Better Friendships... If not, at least maintain the Great Friendships that I have. x)
Yep, this would be considered a success since i managed to still keep good contact with Char, Cheryl, Erica & Stephyz throughout the year =) *nods nods*. not exactly met a lot of new people, but instead of quantity, i make up for quality, and yeah, met some cool people in uni. x) so a fair success? lol

3) Must Have a SUPER FANTABULOUS 18th Bday, XMas, & New Year 2010 for this Year~! x)
Yeah...
hmmm... I was Happy with my Rainbow 18th. =) A bit sad the rainbow wasn't complete, but well, good enough for me, Since ALL My Favourite People were there (Except Stephyz cause it was geographically impossible. =( ), hmmm... xmas and new year? damn, that's gonna be a failure. -_-"""" a yes and no on this one. lol...


4) Make A Fabulous Artwork That I will Be Super Happy & Proud Of Myself With... x)
Yep, Erica's 18th present Pris & I made for her. =D Worth Every single Effort & Second~! =D LoL... i think erica hasn't fixed her arm yet which was broken that night. lol -_-"""" this is one success lol...


5) Get a Job, & Save At Least $3000 in my bank... (Optimum) will be $5000 ++
***All Currency in $AUD. Hahaha. x)
lol, i had really high hopes here. this would be like, if i didn't spend a single cent on food, phone, smartrider and the random assets i bought.lol... But i DO have a job and i'm gonna achieve my minimalistic goal of $100/month, so if i get paid promptly, I should be able to have AT LEAST $1200 by the end of this year... a bit sad, but well, i shouldn't have spent so much on what-my-bro-would-call-"crap". but i love my purchases. =/ in a sense, this is half-half, half a failure, half success. a pass? =/


6) Improve My Singing? XD
lol... hmmm... didn't really do much on this one. whoops. =/ maybe on a scale, i think i've gotten slightly better? HAHAHAa... i can hit an F5... hoping i can go beyond that note... =/ a pass, i guess?

7) Get a *koffKOFFkoff*...
Failed... a couple of potential ones that never talked to me again... but meh, too many of those that i look at and my feelings werent reciprocated...

8) Improve My Drawing Skills & Get Started on Ophie's Manga... xD
hmmm... failed here. i haven't done anything much for my art...yeah. so nothing improved... fail. =/

9) Become Less Controlling, Less Possessive, & Less Jealous. =_=""" (tho i can already imagine how hard that'll be)... *Oh yes, & similar to pris's... Be more open-minded and less stubborn. LOL XD
lol... i guess i can sort-of-safely-proudly say that i've become LESS controlling and possessive, but doesn't mean by a lot. =/ i still have my moments... but well... open mindedness and stubborn? i think i'm still just as thick headed, tho i've relaxed on some personal rules... i'm actually not afraid of saying the f word out loud now, which is pretty bad... cause i hate bad words and swearing. =_="""


10) Oh... yeah... Get that Scrapbook of Our Year 12 Memories Going
lol... entire failure. totally forgotten about it, and it's lying somewhere in charkfin's house still not yet returned to me. =X

So conclusion, That's 4 Fails, & 6 passes (where 2 were success, the other 4 were just yeah, just pass. lol). (note, there were 2 (half-pass,half-fail, which just became 1 pass and 1 fail) LOL... So hmmmm...

Okay, my New Year Resolutions for 2010 would be similar to the ones i made last year, and will change the ones that was entirely failed. LOL...

so *Drum rolls* For 2010 Improvements!!!

1) Make This 2010 Be An EVEN MORE EVENTFUL YEAR~
okay, i didn't really do a lot in 2009, so it should be fairly easy to have more events and outings in 2010? =/


2) Attend Most of my lectures (at least 75%) to meet new people, Build Up More & Better Friendships... Maintain contact with my Favourite people!
Well, Yeah. i skipped all my lectures back in semester 2 of 2009, which was pretty bad, and well, i kinda lost a lot of "uni-life" by doing so... So yepyep. I know that i'll be able to keep in touch with Everyone if Effort is made on both sides, so no doubts about that. =)

3) Make Another Fabulous Artwork That I will Be Super Happy & Proud Of Myself With... x)
lol, not sure when i'll find the time to do this, but i know i want to do something marvellous eventually (again). =)


4) Get a better/another Job, & Save At Least $3000 in my bank... Extreme Success would be $4000... ***All Currency in $AUD. x)
LoL... yeah, if i can find a better job than iga, or another job to give me more shifts. & Well, if i can save $1200 this year, while still being able to spend sooo much money on random stuff. lol, I'm sure i can save $250 a month or more? Yeahhh... =) I kinda earn $250 a week at this rate, lol, cause my weekly tax is less now and sunday double pay (woohoo!) since the new management. =)

so yeh, if i can get another job to get more hours, my bank account will be happy :D & $4000 by the end of next year doesn't LOOK so hard, but i know it will be when it's soooo tempting to spend. -_-"""


5) Improve My Singing? XD
since this was a semi-pass this year, I'm gonna make sure i do something to improve it. HAHAHAh I actually sorta improved my vibrato? HAHAHAH, But it's all very very inconsistent. -_-""" Okay, Whistle Register, More Emotionally Powerful Belting, & Better Consistent Natural Vibrato are my 3 main areas i wanna improve in. =D

6) Try to get at least 50% or more HDs overall in my Commerce Course...
This means getting 5 HDs and 3 D/C/Ps in 2010, because so far in 2009, i have 5 D's, & 3 HD... soo hmmm... yeah, to balance it up to have at least 50% HDs, i need to work harder to get 5 HDs within the 2 semesters... it's gonna be tough work now that i know how many smart geniuses there are in WA after first year of uni, but well, yeah... If i don't achieve it, i'm not gonna kill myself, so lol, yeah. but just my competitive spirit getting angry. =/

7) Get a *koffKOFFkoff*... before i turn 19? Hopefully?
I have failed this my entire life... can i finally find someone worth my time and myself before i turn 19? 19 maybe a prime number,but it sounds so ugly... i feel so sad if i'm gonna turn 21 without anyone romantically special in my life *sniff sniff*

8) Be about 10-20% LESS Materialistic (this is just a personal scale. LOL, considering i'm about 75-80% materialistic atm)...
Yeah, i know i want a lot of stuff, so to save money and support the 4th resolution, i'm gonna try my best to spend less money on assets. Sure it's okay to spend money going out and having fun with my favourite people,but yeah. on "unnecessary assets"....

9) Become an Australian Citizen...
cause i'm like sooo lazy and cbb to read that damn book/pdf file lol... but yeah. need to become a citizen so that i can go and work in Disney World for a year after i graduate =D i'm pretty sure i wanna go there, cause if Charkfin's going, i feel safer & more secure that way than going alone. HAhaha... & Yes, Disney is a Dream come True, & I wanna spend a year of life in the US, i guess. =/ Gonna have to get used to tipping and accents and much lower salaries. lol...

this would also save my mom on uni fees by 20% which would make my mom happy. HAhaha... x)

okay, last one... i'm kinda stuck here... hmm...
10) Okay, Try to be a Better Person...
to be less controlling, manipulative, calculative, analytical,weird and awkward which pisses people off. =/ In summary, To be Less Selfish... =/ and more willing to do favours for others. cause usually, i'm calculative and constantly measuring on a personal scale how much i "owe" someone a favour to actually perform their requests. =/ hmmm, it's very calculative and selfish, instead of living a life where i should be doing & giving without expecting anything in return... =/ that's me, sorry. =/

There we go, 10 resolutions. let's hope i can do better in the coming year. XD

So far, I've worked an extra 2 shifts, so i'm hoping the extra income would be a considerably satisfying increase in my bank balance. =)

other than that, nothing much happened... =/ my personal and social life's dead as almost always... it was definitely fun being able to catch up and chat with erica on Xmas Eve, but well, i wonder if i can do anymore... =/

Okay, Ending here then. x)

Oh Yeah, & I was working today, and omg, it was sooo hot today, hope i dont get skin cancer, and i was cycling quickly, so less than 5 mins under the sun? yeah, omg, seriously, if i had to walk, i would be like roasted for 10-15 mins. >_<"""

Phew. Yeah, today was considered a public holiday as a replacement of Boxing Day from Saturday. Hooray~ XD I hope i get Public Holiday Pay. & hmm. yepyep.. okay. x)

Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... =)

i was listening to Taylor Swift's Song called Mary's Song (Oh My My My) a while back, (while on my way to erica's house on xmas eve)

and that song really got me so emotional... i was almost about to tear at the garbo bus stop. (O_O)"""

But That is suuuucchhh a goood song. T_T It may not be leona's or mariah's Vibrato-Emotional-Power-Belting Style, but Taylor's very casual, close to home and heart, acoustic-y country singing style still hit me in the heart...

mainly it is the lyrics, cause the Melody's Pretty Nice & the Lyrics are like... the most Perfect Love Story of 2 childhood friends who were destined to be together ever since she was 7 and he was 9... & With such Catchy Lyrics which Work So Darn Well with the Pretty Melody, Taylor really Sings it Well Enough to make me all emo... T_T"""

yeah, it was a bit sad that my eyes were getting watery and full in public... but yeah... it's cause it's the Ultimate Romance that I Never Had...

Then again, Taylor has her fair share of failed romances, Where i'm remembering Drew from Teardrops on my Guitar, & Joe Jonas (the jobros), but so far, it's looking pretty good with Taylor Lautner? & if it works out, I'd be sooo happy For Swifty, cause she's like, Beautiful, Isn't She??? Doesn't she Look Beautiful With Her Blue Eyes & That Blonde Hair, & lol... Can't believe a guy didn't snatch her, seriously...

& I reckon her soul's pretty beautiful too, we all have flaws, but like, if she didn't have anything evil to say about Kanye from the VMAs, & she has her fair share of being "normal", understanding the pain of heartbreaks and able to sing songs that really Correlate the Emotions that So Many other people in this world Feel as well. Amazing, Isn't She? I hope Taylor Lautner treats her well, cause so far, they definitely seem pretty good together. =)

(It's also like, Whatta Pleasant Surprise when I saw them appearing in this All-Star Movie that will be coming on Valentine's Day. HAHAHAh) Yeah, Seriously All Star Cast, I remember Bradley Cooper from Hangover appearing on it. x) (i actually haven't watched the hangover,but i know him from other movies. LOL)

okok, i'm gonna end here. Oh yeah, did i mention my mom went to New Zealand & She'll be gone for about 2 weeks. =/ Yay, house to ourselves. but like, omg, so far so bad, my diet's been pretty bad, either i'm not eating, or eating bad food, with no minerals or vitamins at all. =X

sooo bad. T_T

Okok, i blogged for about an hour ish. =/ 7.45 PM now with no plans what's for dinner. =X

Belated Merry Christmas...

okok, it's been ages since i've updated... but there's nothing much to say... =/

Hmmm.... I was pretty much staying at home, same old same old facebooking and been doing my itunes soundless (because when my itunes is working, my windows audio isn't working, when i can play music, my itunes isn't working... and it takes trouble and effort to switch back and forth, as in, i gotta uninstall every apple programme, restart, and then reinstall, and itunes has worked so far... but yeah, sacrificing the sound. oh well, at least MO gets updated, so i've got some good songs on it now. LOL)

yeahhhh... been downloading lotsa albums, mainly all the alternative, pop punk and pop rock albums tho. and lots of real poppy ones. summary of the list goes like coldplay, the fray, the script, maroon 5, all american rejects, bowling for soup, linkin park, simple plan, yellowcard and more. i know i know, they're not my genres, but i grew up with these music (no thanks to my bro and mainstream music at that time when it was all about rock), so i actually like some of their songs. LOL but ended up downloading most of their albums anyway. lol...

then i've got really really poppy ones like celine dion, britney spears, christina aguilera. but like, they have soooo many songs, i've only heard like 10-20% of what they sang, and the rest are like... lol, i dl-ed them anyway, but not sure if i'll listen to them. =X

but what's actually on my repeat playlist is the original london cast recording and the 10th anniversary version recording of the songs for the musical Les Miserables... i know i know, i watched it like earlier in august this year? but i kinda never really appreciated it until... Rachel sang "On My Own" in Glee, & i recently decided to see what's so great about Susan Boyle's "I Dreamed a Dream"...

so since i was dl-ing music, updating my itunes, Surrreeee... Yepyep... LoL... now i'm appreciating Les Mis more. I'd want to watch an actual london/american broadway version now... =/ now that i have a much clearer idea of the storyline, characters and the lyrics than when i first watched it months ago. LoL

Yeah, & When i watched Susan Boyle's Audition at Britain's Got Talent singing "I Dreamed a Dream"... link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

yeah, i know that's old and been quite a while, but oh wells, i'm outdated and kinda didn't care until now when everywhere is saying that Susan Boyle's album debuted at #1 on the UK and Australian music charts, and that's her debut album some more. it's like omg... soooo powerful and pro until like thaaaat??? must be something...

and yeah. watching that youtube video. omg. i saw it on christmas night, and kept replaying it over and over and over again. She was Just Soooo Amazing to me... and i'm sure everyone else who appreciates her music and bought her album. LoL...

Amazing... I admit, i was one of the people who'd think she was gonna be a try hard and end up croaking like a toad... but well, she sure proved us wrong, and yeah... no doubt it's another lesson to remind us that to give everyone a chance and not concluding/judging people by first impressions... *nods nods*

Hmmm.... I already blogged about how much i enjoyed Charkfin's xmas party? XD hmmm. nothing much else for xmas otherwise... over the xmas week, i didn't work at all, my bro got a couple of shifts, so good for him. but i went out to southies to buy some stuff to finish off my xmas presents for my family... lol

i bought a relatively luxurious shaver for my bro. HAHAHAh cause he needs to shave and never does, and yeah... so he doesn't look like a hobo or a terrorist. that's what my cousin and i always tease him about... i know Gillette's the typical popular brand with all the faces of the Sports Superstars, Woods, Federer, but well, i decided to get him this brand called Shick because the packaging said that the blade was Titanium, & I was like OOOOOOOOO WOWWWW LUXURIOUS HAHAHAHAHAHA XD (it was cheaper too... =/) also comes with a trimmer, if my bro doesn't want to shave entire thing off... so yeah... sorta better. =/ (plus Red Rock Chips. LOL)

& I got my cousin one of those nuts about work, and well, gave him a Farmer one, cause he's always calling himself the farmer of the Un pigs... -_-""" so fine, the farmer was coincidentally holding a pig too. so that settled a present. XD HAhahaha

I went out to garbo with Michelle on Thursday and managed to shop for my mom's present. buying an Ice Cream Scoop, cause she mentioned it once and well, she's the one who eats ice cream. so lol... and i got her some extra relatively cheap cups so that she can eat the ice cream with. LoL I thought it was a rather good idea. so hooray x)

I spent quite a bit on xmas presents this year, i haven't calculated how much... my bro said that my present is in the mail. so lol, yeah, he kinda wasn't gonna give me anything (just like all the previous 18 christmases of my life), so lol, hooray i guess. HAhaha

hmmm... oh wells. On christmas night, Michelle came over for our family dinner my mom organised for all our cousins to come over. my mom invited her over which was like, okay... it's kinda like, i reckoned it would've been awkward for her, cause well, all family there, and michelle there? =/

but then again, my cousins brought their girlfriend and boyfriend over... so lol. i have dot dot dot no comments. i kinda never was reallly close to my cousins, and omg, more random strangers. hooray. whatta wonderful christmas... i looooooovveeee spending time with the family.... (entirely sarcasm throughout this paragraph)

seriously and sincerely, i had more fun at charkfin's party. but oh wells. i hope the same thing won't happen when i start my own family. =/

& I was working on Boxing day... 5 hours. yay... i'm working on sunday too, as in like yeah, this morning like always... and then will be working on monday too. so like yay~ more shifts. 3 MORNINGS in a row is a bit annoying, but oh wells, at least i have shifts. x)

Working on the 2nd january too i think? so hooray. =/ (2nd is a saturday, so i'm working 4 hours fri, 5 on sat, 6 on sun... hmmm, 15 hours, lol, wish i could get 30 hours like some people, like about 6-8 hours with gap break days would be really good,but oh wells. beggars can't be choosers =/

Okok, so nothing much really, i didn't join in on boxing day shopping, since i'm working, i doubt i'll be getting any good bargains on post-xmas stuff anytime soon. =(

well, life's been boring and lonely most days as always... Last night, i was thinking of M again... like most other days and nights... i really need something in this life... my room's a mess despite having tried cleaning up a couple of times over these hols. it's like seriously... my room's too small... =_="""

Oh wells, Hope the days bring along something interesting...
Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... =/

Oh yeah, it's a Belated Merry Christmas to Everyone. LoL... & A Happy New Year if i don't blog by then. =)

about 45 mins of blogging. =/

Feeling the Christmas Joy before Christmas...

okok, It's been another while since i've last blogged...

Nothing much to update? Was hanging out with Erica on Wednesday, going to city and harbour town, shopping and talking... x) it's always great to catch up since we all have our busy lives... =/

but omg, i reckon i really hate myself...

it's like, i've been soooo damn desperate, looking at anyone that passes by that satisfies my taste, and like la-dee-dah dreaming... and like, sigh, i'm such an annoying friend, that i kinda dont think i deserve being called a friend...

i have nothing to talk and say about, and i'm such a bad listener, sorry, just thinking that i've been such a boring and annoying person overall... not that i've gone through a terrible heartbreak or some life crises or anything, but i dunno why, i just kinda hate myself cause i can feel that i've just kept becoming a worse and worse person overall... T_T

so yeah, apologies to erica if she might've felt annoyed with me, cause yeah, just reflecting on the way i was acting... it's like, omg, i'd hate myself... -_-""" but it was nevertheless, part of me, and the way i naturally instinctively acted... no point lying about that...

thursday, erica droppped by for a while and we played band hero. x) hahaha, drums were hard right? XD LoL, yeahhh... then we went to southies despite the heat. LoL... & Finally reaching southies and we were exploring the fairly new seoulmart, and then going into coles where i bought water and red rock chips which were on special. HAhahaha

then erica went to the coffees and cakes place outside coles, dont exactly know what it's called, but she had her drink (i have not much knowledge about drinks and beverages either), but we were talking to valerie at Baker's delight. HAHahahah, erica eventually had to go off to work, so i went off to finish my shopping at priceline, and went back home...

friday. not doing anything as always... and went to work... i was pretty surprised that my boss (well, 1 out of the 4 bosses anyway), sent 2 of my colleagues home. yes, that blonde biatch (Muahahahaha), but also sadly, emma, who's a really nice person to work with. cause like in IGA, there's a lot of nice people, but no offense, just not great people to work with, cause like, maybe we just have different and very varying ideas of equity/fairness/sharing the workload as a team...

my colleague on sunday, she's a nice person and everything, but it's just sorta pissing that she's constantly missing, goes out of her till to go who-knows-where and do who-knows-what, and it's like, stop constantly disappearing, and stop hiding from the customers, cause all the customers come to me, thinking that she's not open... so yeah, nice person, but not the best person to work with...

like i admit, i reckon i do get lazy and everything too, i can understand, but well, i do my best to make up for it, and i guess, i just hope that's enough to restore some fair balance anyway... it's better for the world to be a bit more fairer for everyone anyway... right? =/

ANYWAYS, enough about work. other than that, i really haven't been doing much at all... i had been just day dreaming... not much emo-ing tho, surprisingly... eating lots of watermelon. LoL... yumyum. XD

it's kinda like, yeah, i'm sick of this life right now, and i know i wanna do something bigger, something better... but i'm not doing anything about it. so yes, i know i know... i'm just all talk, no action... when there's no follow-through, what can one expect and hope for right? yeah,yeah, i know. so don't give me any lectures about it, i know... the same thing goes for the recent emo semi-heartbreak

Saturday, i was hanging out with Michelle, my ex-tuition teacher back in kuching. lol, it was nice to catch up, andhmmm, pretty much, hanging out in myers and shopping, and i bought myself my Christmas present. HAahaha. I had been eyeing on some crystals in Myers for like a few months alreadY? maybe even half way thru 2009 or before?

but yeah... i finally decided, cause the price was pretty affordable for such pretty crystals, yeah. sure, that's my xmas present for myself. HAHAHAHAHA Sooo Happy. XD But like most of the crystals were damaged with scratches and etc. etc. here and there, with perfectionistic me, i was like, omgomgomg. T_T""" i found some decent quality ones that i'm satisfied with, but there were a couple that, seriously had no choice, they were the most minor and almost unnoticeable if i just completely ignore it... so yeah... what to do? just settle for it lah...

Michelle works in Myers, so she got me 15% off, and saved me 6 bucks? Yay~ XD I could've waited for the special sale? cause like myers has been having this sorta thing, like a different sale every day, which is pretty like. yeahhh... sorta making u go visit a myers every day? but like, it's no point travelling to the city in this summer heat? so like yeah... probably the sale would be a 20%, (with an additional 15% of michelle's employee discount) I could probably save myself another 12 bucks or something but like, whatever lah, seriously, what's another hour of work, compared to dragging myself out of the house to come to myers city, and plus, dunno how to get michelle's employee card anyway... so yeah, just buy it right there right then. x)

yep, after that, we went to hungry jacks to have ice cream, and just chatted. she was telling me about her brother, sharing our opinions about religion and christianity, and some interesting people who worship multiple Gods so that they dont offend Allah, Buddha, God, and etc. others... which well, i find it a bit quirky, but no one has the right to be stopping anyone. x)

she was also telling me about her youngest brother who is getting into a semi-complicated relationship. it's like, he wants to be a bachelor, at the same time, going out with this lady. and hmmm, michelle doesn't like her at all, and neither does the rest of her immediate family. and they make it very very very clear... it's like whoa, i dunno. i sorta felt that maybe michelle and her family were being a bit harsh and closed minded there, but i dunno, maybe the girl her bro is dating is really thaaat aloof and annoying...

well, yeah, and it's like, she and her other bros sorta have tried to tell him of the consequences if things don't work out, cause yeah, pretty complicated that he's spending time in the girl's family's activities... yet, he still wants to be a bachelor? it's like, what does he want out of this? and the way michelle had put it, it's like her bro just doesn't care about the consequences, and just blindly living his everyday as he see fit...

sooo yeah, sounds scary if you're totally ignoring the possible consequences... it's kinda like, what say you? should one live their life care-free without caring about what happens tomorrow? life is sooo much easier and less stressful to worry about. true that, but... hmmm.... one might do things that they would extremely regret, due to who knows, a butterfly effect maybe? or yeah... a long term snowball effect from something small and minor... you never know...

But well, Anyways, eventually parted, and i went to church that night, had hungry jacks, had trouble sleeping due to the heat (it's been that way the past few days, but especially worst that night especially when i had to work on sunday morning)

Well, Anyways, it was really much quiet that sunday compared to previous sundays i've worked, so i was constantly on the floor, stocking stuff... Hmm. yepyep, went home, and then facebooking before i took a nap and then a shower, to get ready for Charkfin's annual xmas party. x) Usually it would be after xmas and either on or after boxing day, but yeah, circumstances had cause us to shift this annual event earlier...

Well, we had our usual chatting and random times. XD Laughing at pretty random things... O_O""" LoL, we must've been really really high from all the sugar and chips we had taken. LOL... yepyep... especially doing the eye thing inspired by shasha, LOL... well, there was dinner, dancing, and watching videos of Jacko and Chris Crocker if i spelt it right? of his Bye Bye Britney Boy video on youtube. lol...

Kristin arrived at about 10.15 ish cause she had her granddad's bday event, and yeahh... glad that she could make it in time anyway, and we had dessert, with jono's ice cream cake which he's semi-famous for. HAhahah... yummy as always with full of chocolate and sugar. XD

After that, it was probably about 10.45 to 11 when we were finally exchanging and opening presents. HAhahaha... It took us like 1.25-1.5 hours to finally open all our presents of the "young ones". LOL... since we took turns opening our presents. & OMG, I've Received Such Nice Presents This Year, it's like Soooo Amazing~! So Wonderful, I felt sorta bad that my present really didn't live up to anything. =X

Jono had given me the 2 CDs of Glee's Music, & IT's like OMG< YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!?! They seriously don't come cheap, and omg. you actually got them for me?? O_O. i felt kinda bad cause like wow... and all i got was chocolates for jono. =( But Thanks SOOO Much though!!! T_T LOVE GLEE <3

Alison & her family had given me this Mickey Mouse in a Santa Suit Plush which sings Christmas songs and MOVE too~!~!~! Like omg, wooooowwww... O_O NICE!@!!! THANKS!!!

but pretty much, i had spent my money and effort on charkfin & her family's presents, (those late nights i spent painting, yepyep) When she opened her present. HAHAHAH, she really thought i gave her 2 bars of cadbury chocolates. XD There was a message there, and she read it half way... which i was saying, i know purple's ur fave colour, so what's better than the world of cadbury? HAHAHAHAHA

the second half said that, nah, ur real present's inside... which she only read it like half a minute later or something, and she found out it's the perfume that she's been wanting ;) HAHAHAHAHAHA I was sooo relieved to know that she hadn't bought it for herself yet when we were out shopping in carousel a couple weeks ago, and she was like saying that, yeah, she wanted to save money, and trying soooo hard to resist splurging. LOL

so yepyep, XD but when finally got her family together, yepyep, i got them to open their present, which was a box used to keep bags of frozen potato chips. LOL... but they opened it to find the real present XD

Hahahah glad that they appreciated the effort i had put in. XD I know i'm not the best artist, i'll say i'm average or maybe slightly above, but definitely not good enough. but Glad that they still loved it anyway. x) soooooo Yay~! :D

Then after that, Jono's mom sent me home, so nice of them to offer me a ride, even tho i had kinda said like, it was okay. =/

it was about 12.45-1 at that time. lol, but i would've walked home... <_<"""

ANYWAYS, yepyep, it's like 3.35 AM now in the morning, and am blogging here... sooo lol, Yepyep, Oh Yeah, Charkfin gave me a Snowglobe with a Photo from my 18th Birthday. HAHAAHAHA Sooo Fun! I keep Shaking It XD!!! THanks~! =D

& Soooo yepyep, it's not really christmas yet, but HAhahaha... Christmas joy is here already. XD

then again, that's kinda the best of the presents i've made... =/ i haven't really done anything special otherwise, sadly. (As mentioned in previous posts, not even for my own family) <_<"""

But well, Anyways... Still can't get over that Jono forked out so much to give me 2 Glee Discs =O & They're the Latest ones too, not like released what-more than 2 years ago? & LOL, Taylor Swift's Albums were really popular in our gift exchanging today. HAHAHA & Green Day too LOL!!!

Well, Anyways, it's been great chatting and chatting with the peoples x)
HAhahaha... It's such a Wonderful Feeling to be Appreciated. HAHAHAHAHAHA I'm such an egocentric attention seeker... <_<"""

Well, Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... =)

Oh & My Headphones arrived today, which are Mix Style, i bought em for about 15 bucks, they're my kinda style, blue with white stars, but for that price, it's pretty flimsy, and the cables are semi below average quality... it's like they won't really last long... sigh. so sad... but they're style is sooo perfect, no brands no advertisement, just pure headphones and colours. =(

sadly, even the quality of the sound isn't great, sounds muffed and not crisp clear as compared to my previous ones. sigghhhh... but what to do when i'm so scabby to fork out good money, and also, when u're buying stuff off ebay, right? =/

but mainly, i hate those branded headphones that put the ugly words on the headphone. no way am i gonna advertise for anyone. >=(

okay, it's about 1 hour of blogging. =/ about 3.45 am now... time to sleep. x)

Do I Deserve All of This?

Okay, been quite some time since i blogged...

nothing much really, wasting my life away... bought band hero on thursday night? yepyep, went to kardinya k-mart, used big w's catalogue to get $238 for the whole band set with Kmart's price promise thing, and with charkfin's employee 5% discount card, HAhahah, Yay~! Paid $226 for it, my cousin and i are yet to pay our share for it, for now, we were just happily playing it on the thurs fri and sats...

lol, yepyep, so taht thurs night, we played the whoooooleee thing, like we skipped some really really random songs, but pretty much unlocked all the venues, and yeahh... we were trying to play the drums, my bro on hard guitars, my cousin on hard bass? while i was playing medium drums (which omg, drums are not easy at all. T_T"""), which i eventually switched to hard singing for about 5 ish songs, then my voice died and went back to drums / all 3 of us swapped, so i was playing bass, bro on drums, cousin on guitar.

ANYWAYS...Yeahhh. it's like LoL games night. HAHAHAHAHAH It was pretty cool tho... =D

The next day, my bro was out, and i was trying to sing to get the high score and bonus points. HAhahahah. So proud of myself i could get 5 stars + 3 bonus stars for the singing bonus, for one song, Taylor Swift's Love Story. LOL!!!!!! XD

The rest i only got platinum which is 2 bonus out of 3 stars... mehh... i went to work on friday, kinda dont wanna talk about it, cause the blonde biatch colleague of mine pissed me off again...

so bitchy, seriously, she was like pretty much doing nothing the whole night but playing cinderella, cleaning everything, when it's TOTALLY UNNECESSARY and there were stuff to stock on the shelves... seriously, whatta biatch... and she was all like telling me what to do...

like some people want fuel vouchers and they usually miss it by a dollar or two (cause u need to spend $25, and u can't get it even if u spent $24.99, how sad,right?) sooo yeahhh.... and she was like, It's Messy. And just chucks all my fuel vouchers away... I'm like... (grrrrrr almost about to erupt inside)... and like, we gotta clean our counters with a cloth, cause milk always leaking or etc.etc. so clean it lohhh... and i leave it on the table by the side, cause i'm too lazy to reach down into the pail of water next to my feet all the time. and she's like, it's sooo messy, and i'm like thinking to myself "Ummm... Smart People know how to be efficient and don't waste time and energy doing unncessary things." ie. constantly bending down to get the cloth from the pail to clean the till, have to twist it so it's semi-wet and clean and then back into the pail, and the whole cycle repeats again, such a waste of time)

Yeah... even like how i already open the plastic bags and leave it on the counter, she's also like, that's sooo messy. and like putting it back onto the hook whatsoever. and it's like, whatta waste of time trying to be neat when people are going to be ASKING and USING the plastic bags... SERIOUSLY BIATCH, Do you think Customers would be like, "Oh my gaaaawwwd, Your till's messy, I'm not coming to IGA ever Again!~~~!" Seriously Female Dog, Get a LIFE... If my counter was crawling with cockroaches and spider cobwebs, Okay, now that's like, yeah, i understand. but like puuhhhhh leeeaaassseeeee.... stop your yapping and go do something more useful? (plus all the times that she randomly has a snack for fat/sugar/energy (whatever~) and giggling with the other colleagues, and still acting like she does more work than either of us.) Sigghhh... how ignorant, pretentious and annoying that bitch is just really gets on my nerves...

I've mentioned this before and like, i respect that she has been working there longer than me, but as a role model or senior worker, she should at least show some understanding, it is only fair anyway... but nooooo... a total biatch... yapping all the way, and totally ignoring anything i have to say... bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch.... -_-... she's just been pissing me off so damn badly that i hate working on fridays now...

(PLUS, What pisses me off even more is how the new boss seems to LIKE Her... it's like, perceiving as tho she's the responsible person who gets the job done like the person she's Exacttly NOT!!! it's like, grrrr, i know she's a white, i know she's short and has platinum blonde hair, and has mascara and lipstick and lip gloss on like a Bratz doll you buy from target or whatever, but PUHLEASE... damn pretentious bitch... Just cause i'm a guy, have black hair, black eyes, grrrrrr... hmph, i'll be more fabulous than bitches like her in MY OWN way... just you wait... >=( that one day when someone out there will realise what i'm worth...)


ANYWAYS, i think that saturday, i was singing some more on band hero, & I had 100% accuracy in 2 songs, that i got 6 stars, LOL PLUS 3 Bonus stars, whcih was like, omg, is that possible??? 9 stars?? O_O""" Nah, but i was playing easy singing tho... so yeah, with easier singing, it's easier to get the accuracy thing... sooo yeah, lol, i wish i was thaaaaat skilled... yeah, on 2 songs, Hil Duff's So Yesterday (that was probably the first song i ever Consciously got hooked on... =/ lol, remember hil duff being my fave artist, HAHAHAH, Stephyz still remembers that, i hope. XD but it;s embarrassing when i think about how i used to sing hil duff songs out loud in the grassy land of my neighbours back in kuching. lol, childhood memories, totally extremely embarrasing. -_-""") OH, & the other song, I forgot which one it is. Either She Will be Loved, Taylor's You Belong With Me or maybe something else. yeah, i love my pop songs... lol prob's not taylor's song cause like You Belong with Me was soooo hard to get 100% i remember, it's like, i kept missing one bar because i keep running out of breath... lol

ANYWAYSSSSS... I'm just like blabbering...HAhahahah... I really haven't done anything much tho... I went to church, i saw David Rozario? lol, pretty random, it's like he randomly added me on facebook with cheryl tee being the mutual friend, yeah, so that we can be restaurant city friends... lol... so it's like, hmmm? i recognise that person sort of? but lol... didn't think he was catholic hahahah and more coincidentally, goes to that church too. LOL...

Anyways... sunday, working as always... slightly a bit pissed off at another colleague, but it's like, she's a nice person overall, just a bit lazy at times, it's like, yeah, worked together for quite a long while now, feel reluctant to get pissed and so just let it go, plus i'm more angry at that bitch on friday anyway)

my bro was nice enough to let me ride the bike he rode home, because sunday was daaaammn hot? -_-""" 39 degrees at 12 noon? but i left the shop at about 2 ish pm, so like yeahhh.... it was still hot anyway, and yay, with the bike, my walking time of usually 10-15 minutes was MORE THAN Halved... so yeahh... that's a good thing. =)

but my bro was reluctant and pissy, so i guess, yeahh... he's a good and understanding elder bro... lol, he's always been the elder bro, and i'm the younger spoilt brat, so lol... he's more willing to do nice things that he's not obliged to do, but does it anyway as compared to calculative me, who doesn't do anything for anyone... *nods nods*

Sunday evening, my mom gave me a haircut, so yay, finally my hair is short again... =/ in time for xmas too. =/ it's gonna be hard to control, but it suits the summer...

Okay, so what have been my feelings so far... I've been trying to distract myself with band hero... but every night, i go back to sleep thinking about M...

It's like, please do not mention the following words in front of me cause i would start getting emo as i start dreaming into the lalaland of what could've been but will never be : beach, scarborough, surfing, canada, vancouver, travelling, brisbane, queensland, handcuffs, or even cooking chocolate... =_=""" Just looking at it as i scan cooking chocolate for customers at IGA gets my mood down... sigghhh... I never used it tho, but it was always an idea i had in store for our next meeting... *sigh*

I've pretty much been doing most of the dumping... Deleting M off my friends list, so that i won't constantly be stalking M... seeing that if M was online, would M talk to me, and if M was offline, wondering what M would be doing or who M would be f-ing...

WHATEVER. I'm Over it, or at least that's what i tell myself, which my heart knows that's far from true... Mehhhh...

My Pride has just been inflating itself with the heartbreak...

It's like, i'm constantly telling myself, I know what i'm worth, and i know i Deserve Better than That, Better than M, and Better than What My Life is Offering Me Right now. Of course, i still love my Best Friends, but like, regarding my pathetic love life, and studying of commerce...

It's like, What am i DOING Working in IGA, with Bitches like those & FOR Someone... I'm BETTER Than THAAT. I Wanna do MY OWN Thing, & Achieve MY OWN Goals... Without Anyone Annoying Getting in MY Way... >=(

& Doing Commerce... I'm just doing it right now cause i've got nothing else better to do... I wish i could find my talent as always... that would be good enough to stand out from the rest of the world... blogged about this already, won't bore u readers to death...

& My Love Life? Zilch. I've had my random one night(or day) stands in the past, and i'm totally sick of it, wishing that someone would break my Almost 18.5 years streak of single status...

But I haven't found anyone in Perth that's looking for a person like me, & I love myself for who i Am. I know that My Best Friends Do... So I'm not gonna Change myself into someone i'm not, cause well, worst mistake anyone can do. BUT ANYWAY.... Yeahh... Thus, the pride screaming, I Deserve Better than This...

Just you Wait, World...
One Day...
When I Prove what I'm Truly Worth...
I'm gonna Show Everyone who Thought I was Nothing...
Undesirable, Pathetic and a Loser in the Game of Love...

I'm gonna Show em...
One Day... All those who never even Looked at Me...
I'll make them Regret their decision. HMPH

Grrrr.....
but Lia comes butting in, and taming Phee, asking, what if i'm not worth much at all?
what if this is everything that i really truly "deserve"?

After all, for being the selfish, stuck up, evil, cruel, pretentious bitch who thinks he's better than everyone... i'm definitely not winning any points for deserving better things in life, am i?

FINE... Maybe i DO Deserve everything right now...

But... Both Phee & Lia agree that this life could be So Much Better, & So Much More Fulfilling than it is right now... & I'll prove my worth...

One Day... I'll make my Loved Ones proud of me, & Happy that they got to know a person like me... omg, when i think about what i just wrote, it's like, lol, yeah, i'm sooooooooo modest, aren't i... now i look even more stuck up and pretentious than ever... but it is me after all...

i Wished i could be a bit more graceful and so sincerely modest like Honda Tohru in Fruits Basket, but i know i'm not that kinda person i guess... I can always dream to be like that, but one has to accept themselves for who they are right?

yeah... okay, i'll probably end my blabbering here...
wonder what i'll be doing tomorrow...
I haven't prepared any presents for my family yet... how sad...
i wanted to buy materials from crazy clarks, but they sold out... sigghhh. so annoying. =/

Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... =/

I bet as i go to sleep tonight, i'll still be wishing that there was a special someone by my side... i've had enough heartbreaks in my life, M is just another failure in my life... the person who invented the lightbulb had a 1000 failures, right? yeah... well, i dunno, should i start counting all my failures? lol, that'll be a bit sad... LOL

maybe i'll bother one day... i dont wanna get too sad and emo right now, i've done all my emo-ing already in the previous days... pride's taking over me like how the summer heat is taking over Australia...

probably blogged for an hour ish ++... it's now 1.25 AM... =/

I Cried, I Tried, A Part of Me has Died...

As from the title... It would've been an emo post, but i've already calmed down ish after letting it all out... but it doesn't mean the pain's gone tho... It just means that i'm numb right now... the pain had hurted sooo much that i've become used to it...

oh, nothing new really... it's just pretty much like, the final straw that broke the horse/camel's back...

in summary of all my detailed emo-ing i wrote in somewhere a bit more private... I already Knew All the Facts, & Already envisioned this happening, but still hoping, dreaming and wishing that there was a chance that it could work...

Well, whatever, I Cried as i read a few words... playing Leona's "Can't Breathe" out loud because I really couldn't breathe...

My Heart was being squeezed, like as tho it was being choked, I couldnt breathe as tears fell...

Well, yeah, that's in summary... other than that, i kept repeating myself over and over about how i already knew M & we weren't meant for each other... I already knew it... So Why is the pain still here???

Well, It's Still here anyway... It's sooo Irrational, I'm just so selfish, obsessive and possessive... No Doubt about it...

After Crying... Something inside me snapped (somewhat?) I decided to go out, and try to forget about M... Dressing up fabulously... My Shiny Velvet Shirt over my Blue Shirt, using the waist belt from my trench coat, & then adding on my wrist cuffs and dangly bow tie for my right hand (like i did at the recent xmas party)

Outside, as i was walking, i had my proud face on, hiding any pain and tears that i had, and just strutting the streets... playing Leona's Can't Breathe for HOURS... lol... still am not sick of it, tho i've turned MO off for now... =/

ANYWAYS... the reason for wanting to go to the city was... Well, it's definitely cause M was sooo perfect, but didn't want me anymore... So I was hoping to find someone on the streets who would prove that i deserved much better than M...

well, I Tried... but it was a failure...

Some hotties were walking alone,but most of them already had wedding rings or were shopping with their partners... Whatever... What i noticed was... There were a fair number of tourists, cause they were speaking languages that i couldn't understand... probably from Europe somewhere... Italy, french, german, they all sound equally gibberish to me as my mind can't process languages... =_="""

Anyways... yeah... I came home... Unsuccessful, and tired from the day... only to still be left with the pain and heartache that i had set out of the house to be rid of...

A Part of Me has Died...
I Don't Cry Tears for no reason, okay... Tears are Significant & Mean a LOT...

But Anyway... Thus... That Summarises the Title...
I Cried, I Tried, A Part of Me has Died...
JoeL Un... =(

I didn't dare reach out, because i didn't wanna be a bother. Stephyz is having fun travelling the world, Erica is busy studying for her supps, why would anyone have the time to want to listen to me emo-ing right? Even then also, I know that this is my own pain and i asked for it, and thus deserve it... there's no right or reason to bring people into this mess of mine i made... yeah, Charlene was busy and she's working, Cheryl just went back to msia, or did she go singapore, and she's busy too... not really anyone to turn to, and i'm scared to reach out... so yeah... my blog will always be here anyway... =/

If only I could find a way to Heal the Pain... Sigghhh...

Gran Torino and a Coincidence...

omg... I was watching this film called "Gran Torino", and i remembered watching a trailer about this film, which i didn't remember what the film was called. I actually thought it would be a flop because an old white guy being neighbours with an asian (Hmong to be exact) family? and there are gangsters involved??? what the bleep?

I knew it wasn't my cup of tea, but i thought hey, pretty interesting when my bro was watching it... So i was watching it with him... and omg...

I'm just like, totally moved by it... I kept talking throughout the film tho (it's like hypocrite to my anti-social-viewer persona) but like, it's kinda cause maybe i just don't understand so many parts of the film, being such a... rough masculine film... don't understand the way "real men" act... pfft. -_-

ANYWAYS, It's like by the end of the film, I could've teared... (but none fell) so hmmm... I know i've never really heard or cared about Clint Eastwood (I only hear his name i guess, but i never really cared who he is and what he did, but that's cause he's such a professional in the things he's doing and it doesn't collide with my world...

But after watching this, and well, all the popularity and success with him being lead actors and directors in sooo many successful box office hits, no doubt there's nothing else but only praise for this man who has so much talent, skill and experience. o_o

Anyways, So like. I have to say, Much of the film is Based on the Development to the climax... I reckon films like these would always stand out from the rest, because once the foundations and connections are created, When the viewers can be sooo engaged with the film and understand the characters, the climax and the ending (provided they're good) will follow through with ease and will be sooo powerful... which is why I found the climax of the film to be sooo powerful, because of the development. T_T

I don't wanna spoil too much, but like, omg, just read the sypnosis from Rotten Tomatoes : http://au.rottentomatoes.com/m/gran_torino/

and that pretty much explains what makes it soooo goood =)

The unlikely developments and it's very very strange "rough" humour indeed, but i could laugh along. LOL so I have to say It is pretty powerful in executing its humorous moments, as well as the deeper, more serious side... and even the action and gun fighting too. Clint, even tho almost reaching 80 i think? can still be the badass, smoking with a gun by his side, able to shout "Get Off My Lawn" with Such Raw Powerful Angry Killer Intent and ACTUALLY Pulling it Off and Meaning It. Like Wow =)

& Well, i reckon it's hard not to get sucked into the film, trying to understand WHY the characters act the way they do, and also not hard to also indulge in the developing friendly relationships... Walt (the main character) knows a lot about death, but not much about life, but yep, he'd realise and find out more about Living in this film. =)

Plus a pretty powerful ending without giving too much away ;)

Other than that, I haven't been doing much... Monday, I received soo much money. XD for some reason i had 200 bucks in my weekly salary, i wondered if they forgot to tax me, or they increased my pay rate, either way, i wanna check it out =) & Hmmm... My mom also paid me my pocket money for the last 2 months. So i instantly had 400 bucks in my bank, & I've reached the 1000 dollar mark~! =D MY target was $1200 by the end of the year. & If i can earn 200 bucks per week and spending minimal amount, no doubt that i can reach that target easily =D

but i've been spending A LOT on xmas presents. T_T""" and myself... I bought a couple of headphones, cause i sadly didn't take care of my headphones, and they died. T_T yeah, even my shiny shiny one which i sooo proudly wore over the year. *sniff sniff*

Oh well, The ones i bought aren't shiny, they're very opaque, and no shine. :( but the designs are very simplistic but well, i like them... But after i had that shiny chunky headphones, i dunno, i really like em, and would want another one of em... but then they sorta hurt my ears after wearing em for a while. So i want some headphones with SUPER COOL SHINY Design (that fits my tastes since i'm so fussy), and well, Yeah, can play music good and doesn't hurt my ears =D

mainly it's cause of my specs, so the headphones pushes my frames into my head. <_<"""

ANYWAYS, yepyep, i went to Southies on monday to send a parcel, (yay, i made profit) and hmmm. omg, the post office was sooo damn packed -o-""" the line was until even OUTSIDE the shop. scary. <_<""" and well, i bought a couple of stuff for presents... & I walked all the way to cheryl's house to drop her xmas present... =/

which allen unexpectedly dropped by too to give her her bday present. it's like, OMG, the both of us didn't expect him. o_o""" I just hope that allen doesn't hate me for being there cause i bet he'd have wanted to have some alone time with cheryl... *rolls eyes*

So Really SORRY >_<""" It's like, omg is this fate or what, the coincidence was just scary -_-"""

Okok, so yepyep, i haven't been doing much, i think i'll finish up decorating the tree later... =/ Got a couple more presents to get ready tho about 80% is done... I haven't actually gotten anything for my family. -_-""

Gonna have to go shopping... =/

okok, think i'll end here,
Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... x)

OH, & Cheryl's already on the plane by now, sooo wishing her a safe flight and everything. =)

about 40 mins blogging... as it's 5.45 now. =/

Embarrassing, But Had Great Fun...

Okay, another update... since i've got time... =/

hmmm, not really feeling emo, so lol, hopefully i'm over the drama already... but it still stings everytime i see couples.. =/

Let's see... Saturday, it was soooooo hot that i woke up at like 12 noon, when i would've slept till like 3 ish pm... My mom decided to go to southies, kinda cause my cousin had to post something. =/ So it's like YESPLEASE,AIRCON~!~@!

& Yeah... why not check out the specials? =)

OMG the specials at coles were sooooooo goood =O $1.29 for 180 grams of the Sweet Natural Confectionary. BEST EVER!!! & Even better my mom paid for me. HAHAHAHA I guess that makes up for all the lollies which my dad ate when he came over a couple months ago? LOL

Yepyep. so seriously, omg, like i'd usually pay 2 bucks (unless i can find $1.80 specials), but yeahhh... we bought like 20 packs of them LOL~!!~! I would be tempted to buy 50 seriously, but naaahhhhh... i was getting pretty broke too. =/

oh OH, & they were lotsa specials on chocolates. Soooo, i know i really dont like giving chocolates as presents, i kinda blogged about it already previously, but sigghhh... well, sadly, i'm giving chocolates... =( Cause i can't figure out anything better that is affordable to give Charkfin's friends whom i've gotten to know fairly well over the years. =/ (hope they don't read this blog, was about to say even more, but i'll stop blabbing here LOL)

Okok. hmmm... Okay, eventually came home, & I was sorta wrapping presents and finding boxes and stuff to wrap them up in... =/ I've still yet to wrap Jono's present, cause i gotta buy more stuff. =/ I still have another one or two more presents to go... But i'm sorta ordering them thru online shopping, so hope they arrive ASAP =)

Hmmm... what else... Yeahhh... I really need my money, my pay's been delayed by one week, i should hopefully receive it by later today. =X

Okok... I better blog about Saturday... So it was a pre-xmas party thing that Alison (char's bestie)'s mom organised/greatly contributed to. =)

Yeah. it was like 5 bucks for the hiring of the venue and dj, and so yeah, no food (kinda obviously), so we brought along chips and snacks to eat on. which i brought doritos from coles earlier. x)

hmmm... Over the night, pretty much it was a lot of chatting, & Random Dancing. HAHAHAHAHAH... Yeah, i'm not really a dancer... but i can hopefully proudly say that i made an effort to dance that night? -_-"""

LoL, There were A LOT of Random dances that i totally didn't understood, and like, the macarina dance? and etc.etc. dances, guess it's been around for ages, but i just seriously never learnt it,so like i think i really looked like an idiot, soooo uncoordinated, and like, the one who keeps stuffing up, standing out from the crowd in a really really bad way... O_O"""

it's reallly really embarrassing when i think about it, but like, lol, all for the sake of having fun, yeah, sure, i had pretty random fun laughing about it. x) it was also fun laughing at the game where everyone was passing the xmas bear and hoop. LoL. we were supposed to like go through the hoop before passing it on, and hugging the bear before we pass it on...

but the aim was like musical chairs, when the dj stops the music, whoever holding the hoop or the bear sits down (thus losing). So some people cheated by just passing along the hoop and not going through it... =_=""" & almost like half the people were throwing the bear, LOL, Like it's a bomb or infected with some disease. LOL Feel soooo sorry for it, sooo mistreated especially by the kids. LoL...

Charlene was a finalist. LoL... too bad she didn't win... the mature uncle guy she was against was taking his time with the hoop, like charkfin was going thru the hoop fast, and passing it away quickly, and he was taking his time. so it's like, maybe if he was faster, charkfin would've been able to pass it back in time and win. HAHAHAH, but yeah, it was pretty fun anyway no matter who won. x)

Overall, for 5 bucks, i had a pretty good night. LoL... Oh & like at the start and towards the end, when all the mature couples (since it was pretty much like a family friends thing, all the adults there) were dancing together, whether slow dancing or grooving to the oldie music. LoL... Yeah, I was in my seat, sort of staring... but my mind off in la-la-land... wishing... dreaming...

Sigghhhh... I Wish... =_="""

I only had 5 hours of sleep that morning and went to work... work wasn't bad, i have more mood working when i have less sleep than the previous week where i got enough sleep, but totally didn't feel like working at all. <_<""" Totally strange, but it works that way... =_="""

I came back, and i was reallly tirred.... I was gonna nap, but after eating lunch, my mom spent the day vacuuming her room and the house, so she wanted me to clean the vacuum thing which collects the dust and dirt. so i had to wash that, i was like, omg, let me nap first mah? i just eaten my lunch, soooo tired... (and i didn't tell her i onlygot 5 hours of sleep, cause she'd be like, "tell u already before etcetc")

Anyways, Oh, & After that, I was like, Hmmm... I feel like setting up the Christmas Tree... Which i did until 7 pm, and i was like sooo tired than, i napped until 10 pm. LOL... My mom was really cool with helping out with the xmas tree. It's like, Wow, i thought she'd be the kinda mom who hates dealing with these kinda traditional trivialities... cause that's how my dad was like, i think...

and my mom always being the kind of person like, don't do sooo much, don't overdo it. and like yeahhh... it's not necessary this, no need that... so like, i was thinking she'd be the kinda person who'd be like, don't need decorate the tree. LOL... cause that's how my bro is like, and well, for me, i'm very.... able to go both ways... When i'm movitvated, i'll be very determind (but not exactly persistent, i have a short span of motivation sadly, that's why most of my projects start off with a lot of heart, but don't really end very well =( ) Sooo hmmm... Yeahhh... and if i don't care, i just don't care... =_="""

So yepyep... there was a lot of glitter...I know i like shiny... But i have a dislike to glitter. I don't hate it, but i really rather not deal with it if i could help it, cause it's sooo damn annoying if glitter gets on clothes and fabric. damn difficult to remove :(

sooo yupyup... but sighhhh... sooo many xmas decos have glitter on them.. <_<... but oh well, they're cheaper alternatives for shiny than crystals... <_< It'd be nice to have a billion of Swarovski crystals at my disposal, cause i'd LOVE to be able to use them in my craftwork. =)

But i reckon I'd LOVE to have Beautiful Crystals anyway. HAHAHAHAHAH.... Dammit, i've sorta conformed to society's view of guys and diamonds don't really match... I'd LOVE to accessorise myself with crystals and bling bling, but i don't think it'd look good since i'm a guy? such a gender-defining thing to say... *shivers* I hate it... Maybe one day... maybe one day... x)

ANYWAYS... OH YEAH... i remember... at the dance thing... cause everyone got confused with the barnyard dancing when everyone swap partners, it's like, lol, dunno how we ended up with the guys going over the other side? Like we sorta did it back in year 10, where guys on the inside/outside, and girls the opposite, and then dancing, and then swapping partners after one round... =/ Sooo yeahh... it got pretty confusing and we didn't really know what to do...

& this old man... he's like in his 50s or 60s, who knows, with white hair. & He was like, "I'm not dancing with you/him/this guy" (i forgot exactly what he said), but i just found it very homophobic. pfft. it's like, so what, gees... =_="""

Jono however was pretty fun and cool about it, and HAHahahah... yeah. we danced... i think i saw people taking pictures of us. LOL, so dot dot dot... it's just so random and all for clean fun anyway... XD it's like nothing to get upset/rude/annoyed about... Seriously, whatever, you old man... =_= Yeah... got better things to do than think about what he said in my head...

So yupyup, anywayyysss... That sums up the weekends, I didn't get to watch Green Day like Charkfin & Alison who got to enjoy it, & Jet as the supporting band who performed about 10 songs? it's like, OMG!!! Jet's amazing enough to have their own concert, & THEY"RE HERE IN PERTH SUPPORTING GREEN DAY ?~!??!~ OMG~!@~~ TOTALLY WORTH THE TICKETS~!~!!!@

I Just don't think concerts are my thing tho... then again, i dunno, i've never been to one... I'd LOOOOVVVEEEE TO GO TO LEONA LEWIS'S ONE IF SHE COMES TO PERTH!!! I Think she's coming to Australia Anyway, Hopefully? =/ OMG, I"D TRAVEL INTERSTATE JUST FOR LEONA!@!!~ LOL!!!! Maybe? maybe not?, but it's definitely worth considering =)

But yeah, overall, i just kinda feel like, i'm sooo poor, i could live without needing to attend concerts... =/

Yeah... Hmmm... Christmas is coming up... Definitely gotta be ready for it... Time's strangely passing pretty fast... feel so sad... It's like already sort of half way thru hols? =/ hmmm... maybe not really, maybe it's halfway thru when we reach new years... But ANYWAYS...

Better start thinking of new year resolutions...
definitely some in mind i have is... make sure i get out of my little shell, JUST a bit at a time... =/ & yeah, try to meet more ppl in uni... but then again, knowing me, i have this thing where i must feel someone seems interesting enough... i kinda don't go around talking to everyone and anyone, and if i do, it's the ones who just seem to have something special about em that keeps me interested. =) I just believe that i have good tastes in being able to choose who's good and who's not, and well, all will be realised with time anyway....

ANYWAYSsss...I think i better go to sleep, it's almost 4.30 AM. O_O"""

okok, about 45 mins blogging,
Until the Next Post,
JoeL Un... =/

I hope more interesting things happen soon. =) I've been sorta bored ish. i need to get out more and do something with peoples... =/ everyone's busy... erica's working and studying, charlene's working, cheryl's packing... =( i'm the one who has so much free time? =/ LOL, nah, even then, my days just pass unproductively... =_="""

I wanna visit school at least once before the semester ends... =/

hopefully later today? =/